Haru Haru of Life

I am Ling. Just a regular and normal college student that is going through life. Sometimes I don't understand why life must be so cruel, yet I treasure all the cruelness in life that makes me who I am and to be a stronger person. Welcome to my blog of expressing my feelings and thoughts.


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we all learn to accept the cruel reality. we grow from our mistakes and bad experiences.
04/9/13
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Bad Habit

On the surface, I seem to be perfectly fine nowadays; but in reality, my inner self is a huge mess. Ever since many fall outs with different friends in the past two years, I haven’t been the same. I didn’t really know about it until my boyfriend pointed it out to me. I don’t try to get close to people anymore, I don’t open up myself much anymore. Not even to people that I used to be close with. 

It’s because I’m scared. I’m scared of getting close to people and then they up and leave me. Like usual. It’s really difficult for me when I have close friends that disappear on me, or we just tend to float apart. So I try to protect myself. 

It’s a bad habit that I have gotten into… but I don’t know how to get back out of it. I know I need to stop shutting myself out so much, but is it really worth the risk to get hurt again? Sigh, I wish it was an easy decision. 

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01/5/13
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I’m Ready to Fly~

In a blink of an eye, I’m going to be graduating. Clemson really changed me a lot. I started off being an immature, naive and stupid teenager. I took everything for granted. Then I was lucky to have a great friend that looked over me and helped me mature a little. But then he left, I couldn’t depend on him anymore. I realized then that I was still immature, cause I depended on him for a lot of things. Then my sophomore year, I made the worst decision ever. By believing that I met my prince charming. Ha. He was a good and bad thing. Bad thing… cause I got hurt by him and I fell into depression. Good thing… cause I learned a lot from that. I grew up. I stopped being so naive and immature. I learned a life lesson through the hard path, but it was worth it. I finally learned to be happy just being myself. I learned to not be a pushover. I met friends that stayed with me throughout my difficult years of college, but I also loss friends that I treasured. It really doesn’t matter anymore. I will just view it as my mistake or that our friendship fate reached an end. I’m happy that I became a leader of a student organization. It really helped me to build up my confidence and to learn to face problems in more of an assertive way. I’m really happy with the experiences I had to go through my 4 years in college. 

But I’m sad to leave, cause the real world is scary and lonely. It means another journey I have to go through. Another journey where I have to once again start making new friends. I’m so tired of it. Cause… after elementary school, I had to go to a junior high from a complete different district; then after junior high, I moved to a different town to go to a different high school; then after high school, I went to college. I had to start anew over and over again. But at least I have some experience with that.

I’m happy to leave, because it’s time to move on and to keep on growing. I have goals I want to fulfill. I want a career. I want a life. I want to experience the world. I want a family…. in like maybe 5 years plus. I’m ready to set flight to start a new journey. I’m ready to fly again. 

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❝ You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you.
Hanif Kureishi (via ryannxp)