In a blink of an eye, I’m going to be graduating. Clemson really changed me a lot. I started off being an immature, naive and stupid teenager. I took everything for granted. Then I was lucky to have a great friend that looked over me and helped me mature a little. But then he left, I couldn’t depend on him anymore. I realized then that I was still immature, cause I depended on him for a lot of things. Then my sophomore year, I made the worst decision ever. By believing that I met my prince charming. Ha. He was a good and bad thing. Bad thing… cause I got hurt by him and I fell into depression. Good thing… cause I learned a lot from that. I grew up. I stopped being so naive and immature. I learned a life lesson through the hard path, but it was worth it. I finally learned to be happy just being myself. I learned to not be a pushover. I met friends that stayed with me throughout my difficult years of college, but I also loss friends that I treasured. It really doesn’t matter anymore. I will just view it as my mistake or that our friendship fate reached an end. I’m happy that I became a leader of a student organization. It really helped me to build up my confidence and to learn to face problems in more of an assertive way. I’m really happy with the experiences I had to go through my 4 years in college.
But I’m sad to leave, cause the real world is scary and lonely. It means another journey I have to go through. Another journey where I have to once again start making new friends. I’m so tired of it. Cause… after elementary school, I had to go to a junior high from a complete different district; then after junior high, I moved to a different town to go to a different high school; then after high school, I went to college. I had to start anew over and over again. But at least I have some experience with that.
I’m happy to leave, because it’s time to move on and to keep on growing. I have goals I want to fulfill. I want a career. I want a life. I want to experience the world. I want a family…. in like maybe 5 years plus. I’m ready to set flight to start a new journey. I’m ready to fly again.